ok..i rily dunno wad my title means.. so
saper tk fhm, fhm2 kan jeklah.. hehehe...
dah lamer seh tk update..
and i rily miss it... FYI my internet is permanently
cut off.. Bahhhhhh!!!
Bingit seh.. haizzzz.. no more blogging.. no more
friendstering... wadeva tat means.. khekhekhe..
now i'm at skul... doin my report tat is only 20% thru... haizzz..
i rily dunno wad to write about... and even a bigger prob, i
dunno where to start...
oh btw.. my attchment is DONE!! FINITO!!
i'm sooooooo HAPPY!!! i feel like jumping up & down!!
bt am not.. satu balak dah lepas tap tmbah agik satu..
dis damn report and project! FCUK!!!
And aniwaes.. i think i'm havin probs wif yan... maybe i should put it this way..i'm the "prob" haizzz... i dunno y i'm doin this to him, i do luv him.. a lot.. bt da feeling that i use to have wen i'm wif him juz isn't there anymore.. I remember the tymes wen i mit him.. juz to c his face makes me go all jelly-leg.. i used to have butterflies in my stomach.. bt now? what telah happen? He used to be my "Shane filan" my ushuk asham... Now? His juz plain ol' Yan...
Y? Y? i noe he luvs me a lot... coz his holding on to this relationship sooo bad... and i too want it to werk out.. it will be all soooo sad that if we were to break up... all those months together...all those luv that we created.. the dreams we shared... Da two kids we might have.. (well fer his case he wants 3) Da dream house he wants... Da motor he wants me to ride on... Gawdddd.... it hurts so bad... y can't it go back to the way it used to be...
And u noe wad else..?? Shakir bahasekan ku rabak sak ari tu... and i rily dunno wad to say... it shot me like daggers... bt still? Da feeling is juz nt there.. bt the thing is wen Yan wanted to break up wif me... he said "You ukan Pompan i" it hurt... and i begged him... and i mean rily... ku sujud der lagi ader.... did that mean i do still luv him very much....??? bt if i do.. how cum i don't give him enuff attention like i used to??
I luked back at the last post... it was sooooo shweet... i dunno y i can't do those tings anymore... is juz sooo diff... i also juz realised how much Yan has changed.... i didn't realised it until he mention it to me... like wen we fight last tyme he usually wld walked away without solving the prob.. bt now? he'll bring me to a near by bench to sit and tolk to sort out the prob... And wen ku majok.. he usually wld uat bodoh bt now he'll go to me.. comfort me... say sweet things to me...until tersenyum ku.... hehehe... haizzzzz... he soooo sweet.. he said that he change for me..bcoz of me... bcoz it was i whu change him... haizzzzz...
I think its enuff fer now... if u guyz wanna noe wad has becum of us... wait fer ma next update Aiite!! Take carez!!
PeAcE!!
*~*~MiZzPiNkIE~*~*
