~~*Very tired*~~

Yo! juz got home frm my CCA, i stayed back to do my art... I'm doin silk-screen.... at first i wanted to do Painting... but i didn't noe how to do the "Development of ideas" 4 Painting, so i decided againts it..... Doing the boards were quite easy but wen it comes to printing it out on the cloth.... Very sian leh... leceh! but wat can i do....?? No choice leh... tats 4 my N'level....haizzzzzz.... Very stress!! If only dis year wasn't my last year! den i don't have to be sooo serious wif my werk all the tyme... haizzzzz.... i wish i cld quit Art, seriously...Miss Rokiah also isn't helping, asik2 mrh2... mcm nak GItak jek kepaler dier...!! habiz mesti nak carik pasal wif me!! Can't she give me a break! i noe she doesn't like me ever since in sec 3 bcoz i changed. Well....wat can i say?? i'm a teenager going thru some phases in life... things change lah...DuH~~~

Well...itz bound to happen... if only namer dier not the same like Ibu... Ibu also at my throat! raser mcm nak kill myself seh...! maybe itz better 4 everybody's life if i was gone...make their life easier. haizzzzz.... Miss my ~Sayang~ i think i'm goin to call him later... Btw sorie 4 not updating regurlarly...as i said b4, bz wif skool werk. Sorie if u ppl been waiting 4 my nxt update, i'll promise to update more in the future~~ thnx 4 reading my blog aniwaes... i gtg! See ya'all! PeAcE oUtZ~~

Ibu's B'day

2day is ibu's bday, we went out and go "mkn2" at Banquet the one at Raffles hospital. Ibu and kakna ate fish and chip, Kakkam ate sweet & sour chicken hot plate.. i ate chicken chilli padi or something i can't remember.. it was delicious. we bought some extras also. we bought Yong tau fu and Carrot cake... tat was delicious too! We were all full after dat and cldn't take another byte... den we went "jln2" at bugis.. We didn't buy anything there... i was too full and i kinda felt sick and i juz wanted to go home.. Ibu still wanted to buy someting at TM so i told her i wanted to go home and went by myself.. I reached home, called Sufyan. We talked bout his adventure to 'OCH" (short form 4 Old Changi Hospital) he went there at around midnight i think.. he and his other 9 'Braderz' i was sooooooo worried bout him goin there... i cldn't sleep.. i woke up at 4 a.m in the morning... and decided i would wait 4 his fone call... i had a girly tolk wif my sis. She said her bf a.k.a Abg A'ad also went there to search 4 some 'hantu's', some said ppl who went there never came out... tat freaked me out.

Den he called me at about 6 a.m plus and said he is safely back at his nenek's house... i was relieved... Who wldn't be? tat building is an abandoned building. Haizzzz..... he told me he also hung out wif some bapok's... khekhekhe, i'm glad he had fun while i was worried sick bout him... aniwaes he wants to go again... we'll see bout tat... gtg...see ya'll! Peace outz!

~~**Annivessary**~~

It will be our 1st month annivesary soon, i'm happy and content wif wat i have wif him.. but i can't seem to figure wat his thingking at times.. itz hard. Sumtimes i feel scared.. scared tat he'll hurt me and den leave me. is not tat i don't trust him, his the first guy tat i'll trust straight away. Wif my ex, i could never feel secure wif the things he tells me i'm not trying to dwell on the past.. but sumtimes i juz sit down and think bout the diff things between Sapuan and Sufyan.. i noe tat they're not the same... Bcoz Sufyan has been the best thing tat ever happened to me 4 the past 5 months. I could tell tat his sincere bout his love 4 me, but wen i was wif Sapuan i wasn't ready to go steady wif him it was more like a rebound thing bcoz i knew him a week after i broke up wif my other ex.

I think Sapuan only wanted to use me as his sex-partner thing... but i don't understand y he stuck to me for 5 months.... i saw him the other dae at the MRT station he saw me too, but he didn't approach me, my mind was goin hay-wire wen i recognise him... i wasn't ready to see him and i quickly turned away... he msg me and ask me y i turned away frm him. i juz said i wasn't ready to face him... he asked me whether i loved him still.. i said wats the point even if i did.. it doesn't matter bcoz i ain't coming back to him even if i wasn't wif Sufyan. He still contact my kuzin, so i would get news bout him. itz strange but i knew frm the start tat Sapuan was attracted to My kuzin more.. i can tell frm the vibe his giving my kuzin.. but it doesn't matter.. this isn't suppose to be about him. it was supposed to be bout me and Sufyan, i'm sorry Syg.. i got carried away.

So our annivesary will be on Sunday 14, i hope there will be more then juz a month between us. I remember the tyme wen he became my guy.. it was cute No, he was cute.. he was shy to express his feelings but i had a pretty gd idea wat he feels bout me i was juz shocked wen he asked me then and there at the water-breaker.hehehe
den he read my card, tat was special the card was special he was special to me, i juz hope he feel the same wae. I love u syg! well..i think i've typed down enuff, i'll see
ya'll later! PEACE!

SaTuDaY

Juz got home..went out wif my guy.. a lil tired.... but i'm fine...wah dah lamer tak update seh... khekhekhe... bz ah... aniwaes, dah bulan 3... how fast tyme flies... next week will be our 1st month anivessarry, hehehehe! Excited seh... got hmwerk to be done. Ibu aru found out bout my piercing and shes furious bout it...tak biz2 yammerring bout it... den she say "knaper kau tak tindik kaunyer lidah skali?!?!?!" haizzz.... nanti ah...but Sufyan tak kasih...he say don't do it coz later my mum mrh. Oh..well... *rubz tummy" lapar ulakz, otayzlah... see ya'll!