SoRrY~~**

Hi, Itz been awhile since i wrote anything... i juz didn't have anything to talk bout, i'm too lost in this werld... too Blind to see the shit wrap around a fake scene, my ex wants me back huh, thinkin dat maybe i'll juz be a Lil blind and take his shit back, well i'm sorry... i ain't dat girl no more.. But thnx 4 making the woman i am today it made me see dat these werld is more den wat it looks like, War is coming... i can tell frm all the cries frm the liltle ones.. i wake up and am grateful dat at least i still have a shelter to live under.. But will i ever be grateful enuff wif wat i have?? i dunno, i'm sorry Ibu i ain't dat "Adek" whu usually listens to her mummy.. i'm sorry if i ain't Perfect, dis is juz me.. I look in the mirror and say whu the hell is dat girl?? wat happen to her?? Den i remebered Peer presure, always trying to fit in, always wanting to be in the limelight.. but dat don't matter no more.. i lost my innocense to a guy, blinded by love filled wif lies.. i realised how i always been giving and never gettin in return.. huh.. how could i've been so trusting to this guy?? The boys in class juz thinks they got the upperhand always making ppl feel inferior of them huh, i'm sorry i don't give a fuck of wat u think of me?!?!?! call me anything u want and i won't give a damn, i won't let u break me.. not wif words dat don't mean a thing.. To the guyz who thinks dey can have wat dey want , sorry we girls aren't SLuTS!! nobody can hold us down, never will, never can.. (taken by my idol song, X-Tina )

To a friend whu i tot was a friend, even though u've said sorrie the pain is still there.. and i can 4give but can never 4get the things u said .. All of ur backstabbing and hypocrisy, but dat makes me much stronger to stand my rights, made me much smarter to say wats right.. made me much wiser to find the right kind of frend which i found in u noe whu u r, u were alwayz there 4 me no matter wat.. never did i forget the things we've done 2gether as frends, i noe sumtimes i can be a pain in the ass but i never meant all those things i said.. My sistaz i'm sorry if i've always been rude to u, i dunno y i always do the things i did to annoy u two.. i'm juz really sorry

Sorry 4 not doin wats told

Sorry 4 never speaking my mind

Sorry i'm not a Slut

Sorry i ain't some toy

Sorry but i juz don't give a fuck no more..

Juz Got home..

Aniwaes i went to Geylang todae wif Zimah,Shidah and Ina itz been awhile since i went out wif Ina & Shidah yah.. almost been a year.. hahaha *giggles* i hardly see them, dey're always wif their own thing.. Lotza of things has change.. Even them.. i hardly noe them, the fact tat i don't leave nearby is partly why maybe.. Oh God, i think my leg is giving me crams...MAn! can't dey give me a break i think its bcoz i walk too much juz now. The place was packed wif ppl and it was damn hot! pheeewww *wiping forehead* yah.. Den i went home at about 11.00pm. mum didn't yell at me..hehehe, i got lucky..
aniwaes..i gtg see ya'll next tyme! PeAce OuT!!~~

VeRy CoNfUsEd ~~

i'm very confused right now, i dunno which one to choose i feel very shitty.. and i can't scrub it off by using a loofa... wat am i gonna do? i like dis guy and i love this other guy... but the guy i like loves me.. and of coz the guy i love loves me too... okay dis is beggining to confuse u all huh?? nvm... 4 get wat i said... I'm kinda stress out now, Mum's yelling at me to clean up the house coz u noe Hari-raya is coming in 2 weeks and i haven't even started.. But its not fair, she keeps yelling at me and not my 2nd elder sis!! itz always been like dat...but she's already 19 and mum act's as if shes a baby dat needs to be protected... The hell she is!! she's so not independant enuff...i dunno wat will happen if we're all no longer in this werld and she's all alone.. wat will she do..?? i wonder...